i want to work on this blog but i also want to paint but i also need to study but i also want to read but i also want to write

honestly been struggling since i learned neocities doesn't protect against AI and even supports it. i understand it's not all-bad and can help support people's quality of life, especially when applied to the medical field. but i hate the theft of art and the absolutely destructive influence it's having on people who have just stopped trying to learn anything because "what's the point if ai can just do it for me." idk if i wanna stay on neocities but...ugh i don't wanna leave what i've already put so much time and effort into

i want to redo my entire site but i need to do other things and the amount of time i can see it taking to redo the site is making my head melt a little...

♫ "knee deep in the passenger seat and you're eating me out, is it casual now..."
this song is stuck in my head now lol... (chappell roan - casual)

i took off today and tomorrow so i could relax and sulk and just be a person for a little, since the anniversary of my mom's passing is tomorrow.... i want to go to a cafe but i'm also trying to save money so i'll probably just end up making myself a large bowl of pasta ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

just found out that my site isn't readiable on mobile and also isn't easy to update on movbile...so that sucks lol

made a microblog, it's not filterable by tags and has no tags. but it's cute so.